One of many

One of my many flaws is that by trying to be positive in every aspect can have its backfires.
In peoples eyes you uphold the bubbliness, the positivity because that is you.
To them this is how you are and who you are.
Therefore you, yourself shrug off what is bothering you. You shrug off what you are holding inside. You don't really tell people about your negative feelings because that would only cause worry. They will give you that look that you hate. So slowly overtime it all bottles up. You try your best to keep it all in. But you start to crack little by little. The negativity slowly starts to seep out.
You start to feel the full force of the pain. You start to hurt. You don't know how to handle this. So you cry, you scream, you hit...
But no one understands. No one understands that all you need in that moment in time, however long it may be, is a person who will just sit there in silence and hug you. Letting you cry it all out because all you really need is someone to be there to comfort you with the use of gestures not words.
No one understands that this is what I need most right now.