A little something from the heart

Dandelions are something to cherish when you have found one.
Just like Love.
Just make a wish and believe.
Cherish it like you would with your first hug or kiss.
Hold onto it like it was your one and only.
But most of all never give it away, because you won’t know when you will find another.
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The wind whispered against my ear.
It told me to never let go.
Just keep holding on to the ones that you find so dear.
Don't come and go.
Because will they always be here?

My heart sang to me.
It's beat, it's rhythm showed me the way.
Does not matter if your away.
There LOVE will always stay.
Is it true?
I ask my heart.
I don't know where to start.
To state my worries and fears.
That someday they will not be here.
What if they forget?
What if the move on?
What if...
Tears stream down my cheeks.
My heart tells me to continue to speak.
No words would come out.
I begin to shake.
Rocking to and fro.
I've lost it.
Where has it gone?
My hopes, dreams, happiness, laughter?
I miss them oh so much.
My friends and family.
The things I once had.
Now I'm left with nothing.
But an empty feeling and loneliness.

I lashed out at my heart.
The silent scream that was once held inside of me burst.
It errupted like a volcano.
Destroying what ever was left in its path.
I look in the mirror and see a mess.
But why are they still there?
Is it not enough that the tormented me?
No, my heart said firmly.
It's because...
They LOVE you.

I stopped.
Startled, shocked, shaken by what I heard.
Why would they LOVE me?
And want me to go?
It's all lies.
Even you of the most purest thing have been tricked.

And thus my heart once again sang to me.
If they loved you.
Would they not want the best for you?
They will still miss you.
Want you back to hear your voice and laughter.
To feel your presence amoung them.
Don't lose your sense of way.
Because they will always want you to stay.
It's not what you convey it to be.
They truly LOVE you my dear.

I understood what my heart was telling me.
What I had to do to help myself.
To be strong and brave.
They will never leave you.
Because their LOVE will always be here.
Inside of your HEART.

-SongOfTheHeart
Take note: I WROTE THAT <3

Oh what a lovely Saturday (L)

You see normally Saturday's for me are shiet.
But not this week.

In the morning we (Justin, Twah and I) got dropped off at tutor.
We went inside and waited till the car went.
Twah and I went to Macca's first cause she was hungry.
APPLE PIES ARE LIKE 2.25 now like WTF.
Yeah we were on a mission to buy chocolate for Chi. Cause I forgot her chocolate at home. She seemed pretty down lately so I was like what does she like?
Hrmmm first thought was chocolate... Cause maybe I like chocolate tooo...
hehe
Yeah we found chocolate and I bought it for Chi.
Yep we came to tutor during maths class like last 30 minutes.
Yeah Twah and I went up to our classroom window and was like OPEN THE DOOR!
This old lady (not being disrespectful) looked like she was struggling to carry the table with the little kid. So I offered to help her and so did Twah. We helped her carry the table ^^
GOOD DEED DONE ^^
Yeah Huy came out cause he opened the door for us.
Ahah I gave Chi the chocolate and she was like OO"
Chocolate was Kit Kat Chunky Cookies and Cream...
Yumm hehe
I guess she seemed happy when I gave it to her.

Then we had english with the evil lady.
Huy got sent to the back of the room.
Anthony got sent out of the room.
And I was sent in the corner =="
I think it was cause I talked to loud :L
Ohh wells.

Yeah teacher was like stop being such idiots and grow up. Stop making snorting noises
Huy, Chi, Twah, Anthony and I were like WTF we don't even do that :L
So when she said we did it, at the same time we snorted ROFLMAO
Teacher:Huy what do you want to be when your older?
Huy: Why do I have to tell you miss?
Teacher: Cause I want to know.
Huy: Well its private your not allowed to know.
Teacher: Fine GRRRR
She left us alone.
Me: So Huy what do you want to be?
Huy: Probs a doctor.
Chi: I'm going to be a nurse.
Twah: I'm going to be a nutritionist.
Anthony and me: We don't know yet :L
Ahah
Then we were like lets like open a hospital together.
ROfL and we'll name it with the first letters of our name.
B for Belinda
A for Anthony
T for Tracey
C for Chi
H for Huy
SPELLS ---> BATCH
ROFL Anthony was like lets put a line in it so its like B-ATCH (biatch)
Me: You can't do that, I'll feel left out
Anthony: You can be like the leader
Me: More like the loner
Anthony: Nooo
Me: At least give me a ~ instead of - it looks prettier ^^

After tutor went to HP.
Techinika is AWESOME even though I made Tracey fail :L
Ahah
Went home, did some homework.

At night when it was raining really hard, I took out my umbrella and went outside to play in the rain ^^
It was really fun ROFL
My cousin came home (20 year old) and I dragged her outside without and umbrella.
I ran around in the rain, splashed her and shook all the trees so she got wet. She just walked around.
We went on the street and I was running around while flapping my arms and jumping in puddles.
-I must of looked mental when the cars drove past-
Yeah we stayed outside for like 20 minutes plus.
It was fun as :P
YEAH ;D
Went to sleep at like 2 cause I finished colouring in Khri's Superwog house :L
It's supposed to be a dog house for VCD but ohh well.
I just edited the name of the house to SUPERWOG :L

-SongOfTheHeart
Take note: I did a good deed today, tried to cheer someone up, and Superwog now lives in a dog house :P
I HEART YOU PEOPLE (L)

It's been so fast...

Just the other day it felt like the first day of school. Where I looked at my class list and was like OMG I've got no one in my class.
Now it's the nearly the end of the year and I've made new friends from 9D.

I felt like just the other day it felt like the start of 2009.
But now it's near the end of the year. 9 more days...

*Sigh*
Why is it ending so fast? Don't go too fast because then next year 2010 I'll only be here until March 28th.
Don't do this to me. It's going to fast.
I haven't been able to be there for everyone.
I haven't been able to visit them, talk to them or even hug them.

Holidays are coming soon...
And I have to admit, I still want school to go on.
I'm scared I won't be able to see many people. I won't be able to see my friends that often.

At the beginning of the year I was like I can't wait for school to end. And now look I want school to go on and never let 2010 come.
But life goes on. Soon I'll be gone.

One question has always been on my mind. When I knew the end of the year was coming I thought
"When it's the day for me to leave, do you think all my friends and family will come to the airport to see me off?"
I hope they do (L)

Let time slow down a bit so I can gather my thoughts and emotions.
You can't run away from it forever Linda. Just take a chance. Your friends and family will always be there for you... right?

-SongOfTheHeart

Sometimes I question myself. Is this what I really want?
I worked so hard for it, am i truly ready for this?
To leave everything behind?
Will it be the same when I return?
Be on my own in the world?
Is this the path that I have chosen?

Sayonara, Thank-you and for so much more

I'm really, really, happy that I got in.
But at the same time, sad.
Because I'm leaving.
No family.
No friends.
No more hugs...
Just me, myself and I.

*sighs* but when a good oppurtunity comes you grab it and not let go -alyssa

I want to turn back, but I'll know I'll regret it.
Keep moving forward Linda.

There are moments in our lives where we find ourselves at crossroads. Afraid, confused, without a road map. The choices we make in those moments can define the rest of our days. Of course, when face with the unknown, most of us choose to turn around and go back. But once in a while, people push onto something better, something found beyond the pain of going it alone and just beyond the bravery and courage it takes to let someone in,or give someone a second chance, something beyond the quiet persistence of a dream. Because it's only when you're tested, that you discover who you are, that you discover who you can be. The person who you can be, beyond hard work, faith, belief and beyond the heartache and the fear of what lies ahead.

Thank-you Alyssa <3

-SongOfTheHeart

What the hell is wrong with me?

Every part of me, is going spasticated.
Yesturday morning I woke up feeling sick to the stomach.
I ignored it, then I throw up.
Like WTF?
I feel like crying.
What is wrong with me?

-SongOfTheHeart

FML once again

I NEED A HUG!
FML

Why was yesturday such a good day?
With Julie, Tracey, Susan and Vivian?
WHY ?!
We went to the beach yesturday and had a blast!
Best memory of the beach so far.
Screw that Indian guy who wanted to start shiet with us.
FN 40 some crap and can't do jack with four 14/15 year old girls.
WHAT ARE YOU MAN!?

LOVE YOU SUSAN

-SongOfTheHeart

Takenote: Twah probs wrote about yesturday at the beach on her blog.